I was laying on my bed, trying to sleep in spite of all these pessimist thoughts. What would I ever do if you just decide being together is no longer a good idea? I rather die than living in such a nightmare.
Sudenly I found myself burning into tears, although we're still together. I'm but a mourner, I know, and I yearn these thoughts to go forever and never come back.
But how? I wondered why I'm always the negative one. I wanted to kill that feeling of helplesness chasing me since the beggining of times.
I wanna figure out how to destroy this nonsense sadness, I need to enjoy the life I'm sharing with you withouth thinking you'll forsake me. But I can't. I can't keep off my mind in this stupid maze of negativity.
